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Today

i am in a blank now, what should i say
or even do. why every time things happen
to me so sudden? i just wanna have a good
and happy relationship but every time it
wont gose smoothly.. I really very stress and
very sad at the same time.. my heart really
drops to the bottom, there is alot of things in
my head now. what should i do now!!! haiz..














y cant my life jus end here.! there is really nth in this world for me that i
will wanna leave anymore.. haiz

Sunday Afternoon
came back from a tiring duty in camp.
actually meeting dear at 9am de but she
yesterday Play L4D till very late then slp
till now then wake up n msg mi ):

I was very moody for this week, cant
trying to find a good spot to hide myself
and dun ever come out. Things r coming to me
1 by 1 and each things r getting more n more hard
to handle. having lots of things in my head n even my
heart, i starting to fall off track already.

=-Case By Case-=
1 thing i have to say. Govt work aint that easy.
i am revoke to NSF at 11/05/10, and now i have
to serve another 2 years as for the past of my 1yr 10mth
was all not counted.. New ORD date nw 15/04/12?! i
cant belive that.. Worse of all i still have to pay THE GOVT
3.7k as what they say it was a back pay bonus, oh greatz i dun
understand at all and now i have to monthly pay back still haven
finish yet more to come.. i have a laptop to pay n a insurance too
how the hell with the bloody NSF pay i can return all tis? simple conclucion
Govt work aint easy to work, if u r not rdy to serve then dun..

Days..
Father's day today.. happie yet sad at the same time, i have
yet to tell my father my case n intention was to tell him today but
WTF today father's day how can that be possible?! argh!i really dun
know what i can do haiz..Anyway, Happie Father's Day DAD..

Secrect
i have a msg save in my phone i will read it everyday to remind myself haiz
i love u my dear jingxuan..

End of today..

starting up my blog with the saddest news..
i dun know how should i say tis, maybe in
the first place i should not have drink or
maybe i should not have been born in this
world at all. the born of me cause ppl so much
trouble, i feel very sad but whats the point?
can say that i started all this. maybe someone is
right, a lepord will nv change its spot.. haiz, y must
i always drink why must i always help ppl so much?!
haiz..